reflections @ 36

Mar 25

3.25.2025 | 2:38pm | Tuesday | reflections @ 36

28 was the last minute pregame

It’s safe to say turning 28 was an eye opener. Realizing I am not where I wanted to be and the trajectory I was on wasn’t necessarily leading me to where I want to be. I suppose the universe will keep you on whatever course you desire, but I truly believe it will get you where you want to be when you take the time to plan ahead and think about your desire outcome. I think around that time I was hoping to find love, start a family and chase my music dreams until something worked out. It was stagnant in every way. No love on the horizon, high passion for music and an natural feeling that something would shake at some point, but I knew there were changes I had to make.

30 was a new beginning

After realizing things needed to change, I think I continued living the same lifestyle while pondering and thinking about what’s next. What do I want to do? What calls to me? What feels natural? Where do I feel the most “in the zone”? I think around age 30, I started getting serious. I used to think 30 was the beginning of the end, nothing great happens after turning 30. I refused to let that thought take hold and I hit the ground running raising money and chasing my dreams. I feel like the universe takes notes of the small sacrifices we make in lieu of the dreams we wish to make real. I feel the Universe gives us small rewards and internal knowings to remind us we are in the correct path. Still lost, I was experimenting with everything. Networking with passengers, connection dots on social media, following through on my own creative ideas and learning that I myself am highly qualified, capable and able to make my dream real with my own mind and my own hands. I believe I spend the follow 5 years exploring this theory. Testing my skills and expanding my knowledge thru trying things. Having a vision, sketching it out and bringing it to life. [I should invest in a damn 3-D printer and take this to the next level]

[32 was like a last ditch effort to live like I’m in my mid-twenties still]

35 was the end of the beginning

Operating as a well oiled machine… seasoned and experienced, it was time to narrow it down and get serious about the next phase….cutting out a lot of slack and no longer forcing things that I wasn’t passionate about, I started to find what came natural along with a mix of things that I found challenging but necessary to build my brand. Continuing to learn and push the boundaries, I have still be in a mode of evaluating while maintaining functionality. The candles will be a fun starting point to reflect on and I still have a few small projects for the candle idea as that winds down, I found a resurgence in rideshare and looking to connect and build a community within that all while continuing creating music and clothing, stickers and merch in hopes to open up a real live record shop with collectibles, shareables, physical music along with curated music history and selfie museum. The dream will eventually become real, but I’m still in process of raising funds and making it all real.

36 is mastering & manifesting

The last 5 years have been nothing short of fulfilling. I found some sort of freedom in a simple life. I work a regular job, 40 hours a week [give or take 5 on any random week] I have outside passions I pursuit along with a side hussle using rideshare opportunities to connect and network with the people around me. Knowing what I want is still a little blurry, but I’m continuously moving forward toward something great. It’s hard to pin-point what it is I love to do and wouldn’t mind doing for the rest of my life, perhaps I’ll just enjoy the journey the entire time as i figure out what works in the meantime, the same way I always have. I have my sights set on creating something special. I have this internal feeling that when the vision comes together and the world is able to see the ideas that have been in my head for so long, it will all make sense. I can only say so much until I sound like a concept that’s never been created, because at the end of the day it is.

taking longer than expected

I can’t lie. I finally feel like I am where I would’ve like to have been at age 21. Clearly the route to get me here was worth while and the lessons learned have prepared me for the place I’m in. It’s safe to say that skipping major steps might have proven to be more detrimental than beneficial in the long run. I love who I am, I am learning to forgive the person I was in the past and I am focused on making choices that my future self will be proud of and thankful for.

little by little,

brick by brick,

I will bring this dream to life.

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